Bi-Polor Mom things have been and will get better. If you seek out life solutions. And ask for help

Life hasn't always been and will never be completely easy for me. My mental illness is more stable than it used to be. 5 years ago i had one of my 2 nervous breakdowns. Long story i put my kids in foster care myself. Alot of bullshit, professional help and alot of pushing on my part my kids and i are much better off now than back than. i have a wonderful psychatrist, therapist and father of my kids has come back into my life. I pushed him away and didn't talk to him for 3 years. problem, i'm having now is he has a job but, he cann't get an apartment anywhere for all of us to live. he was evicted from his and his mom's apt. he worked nights while his mom slept. during the day he slept and his mom was awake. she was acting a bit unusual and he thought it was signs of old age. but, when she disappeared for 2 days. and didn't know who she was, how she got where the police found her. he found out she had alzheimer's disease. she handed his money for his part of the rent every month. she went into the nursing home. and he went on the streets. he stays with me a few days a week. but, that's all he dares or the kids and i will be put on the streets too. i haven't had a job in 9 years and i'm considering getting a certificate in home health aide. i need to work even though i dont know how that will work. i may get fired from a few jobs. he's going to work nights and stay at a motel a week at a time. and we are determined to find a place we can live at together. i'm willing to give up my ssi and the food stamps. but, i am scared very scared! i know my kids dad loves me and the kids. but, i'm scared to get a job and not have a nervous breakdown. if anyone has mental illness especially please comment back. even if you don't have mental illness please comment back if you have any suggestions. i'll take words of encouragement too. please, don't ask if you can help with money. i've gotten enough from the goverment. i'm want to fend for myself. corrinedj of blaine, mn